30 minutes ago

the closed door opens

and u walk backwards

the empty coffee grows warm and

your joy and sorrow bring in words

before i heard you say goodbye

before you made a bad expression

before you made a sad expression

the hand that held the cup doesn't shake or hesitate

30 minutes ago,

my heart wasn't broken

my face wasn't soaked with tears

no matter how much I cry, time will only move forward

the goodbye between you and me, it can;t be undone

to 30 minutes ago.

the sunshine was so beautiful

seeing you make my heart race

you saddenned voice which captured my heart

we should leave now

everyone looking at you

it's embarrassing that you makeup is messy because of tears

30 minutes ago, the time should have stopped

but the sunshine is still the same

the clock is ticking

i can't rewind anything back

to 30 minutes ago.

If I go...

If I go...
enjoy life
make new frins
capture different memories
cook myself
travel when holiday
different study environment
blonde people around
improve my communication
experience lot of things

If I go...

leave my parent alone

spend lot of money

miss my bro & frins

can't drive to school

miss my mum's cook

need study harder

nobody helps when I get trouble

My life = my life

A man in my dream...

A dream,
i lost someone..
an important person...
as I remember,
he was trying to commit suicide
because of his lovers...
and he's missing...

he is king, i think,
he got many women,
who he's love and who love him...
I am included, one..who fell in love with him...

Everybody trying to find him, doesn't know he is still alive or not...
there was a lift to the top, his women just want to find him,
so everyone take the lift and they want to be the first person to got him...
It was like a hide and seek...but,
nobody found him...
and my dream jump to attend his funeral so sudden...

I wear a white dress, crying...
I hope he's still here...
the feeling so deeply, he just like a family member or a partner...
that i don't want and i can't without him in my live...
and i woke up with tears*

Casino

Finally without blocking, i am freely to big big step in to the "Casino"...

Just a mood, not a purpose for gamble...so, this can be called as "antecedent state... Am i right, Mr Prem? Lol...

Another beginning...

Hoping all my wishes, come true...

Fighting June & Everyone^^

*A Happy*

I mean a really feeling of happy.

"It is like a treasure to me."

Can i have it to be my Birthday Present???

I hope to keep it forever and share it with my family...

working at BO...

BO= Brands Outlet (Jusco Bkt Indah)

Day of the fifth, i worked at BO...it is tired, my legs so pain...T.T...but i enjoyed...^^ think about the salary, actually not much, but better than dun have...so i can save more money in bank...lol...

i'm quite lucky because my colleagues treat me not bad.. they are fun!

I think i can remember all their names, June, Meena, Joy, Beena, Sabarina, Meili, Wilson, Ajimah, Siti, and so on...lol

Actually another purpose to work is to lose my weight, but quite hard ard, because they always bring me out for lunch and dinner...=.=

Pls myself, u can do it!!!

money come x 3!!! my fat go x 3!!!

cheers*

June*

I found in Urban Dictionary...

"June"

June babies are sweet, caring, sexy, lovable and all around cuddly.

Cause June is just awesome that way...

A fairly uncommon girls' name presently. It was often used during the 1940s and 50s. They are few and far between. Often, women named June are opinionated and outspoken. Also, they emit an aura of confidence that makes them instantly attractive.

If you meet a girl named June, you are lucky.

Just check it out yours..^^

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=name